he will not delay.

You might've already seen me mention it on social media outlets because hello, it's hard to keep good news to myself, especially when so many of you have invested emotionally and financially in our adoption...BUT we are officially on the wait list a referral! We are so excited to be taking this step. 

Right now, the average wait time with our agency and the country we are adopting from is four months. So, hopefully right around Gunner's second birthday in February, we will be seeing our Titus' picture for the first time.

Honestly, when we began the process, we thought we would be bringing Titus home around February-March but there was definitely some wishful thinking in that + changing of timelines within the process has caused us to realize that having him home by next summer is much more realistic. 

I wasn't a big fan of this delay when we first came to realization, and a lot of my lack of writing on adoption has come from that disappointment. However, I'm constantly assured that the Lord is FOR me, not AGAINST me and that His timing is perfect. Cody and I discuss often that God already has our Titus in mind for us and we have to be on the wait list at the exact time, with the exact "waiting number," to be matched with him. That brings a peace to my heart. 

A few Sundays ago, when we were really feeling the burden of the delay in the time frame we'd mapped out, we sang these words in a worship song...

Trouble surround me, chaos abounding,
My soul will rest in You. 
I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm.
My help is on the way, my help is on the way.

Oh my God, He will not delay. 
My refuge and strength, always. 
I will not fear. His promise is true.
My God will come through, always. 

Cody sat down and immediately began writing his thoughts down -- he always does this when something hits him and my eyes filled with tears in realization that our Father never delays in coming to our rescue. 

I'm learning that adoption is like every other thing in our lives...unpredictable, out of our control, and completely in the hands of God. And while I haven't always been 100% okay with that, I'm slowly learning to be calm and content and restful in the wait.